Today is the start of SA1. English. Paper 1 was still quite good except the situational writing(dunno what i crapping) =.= Paper 2 totally killed ME, Whats worse is that i thought about Kitago thingy OMG, what the hell is wrong with me! Probably its abt the passage thats why. The first question dumbstruck me, subsequent questions eroded me...was like crapping all those quesitons....high possibility of doing badly...X.x

I tried so hard to read your diary today, don't know why i did it...lol. Tomorrow is CHINESE test!! I want my A1, fight fight fight(for time)

Hard work pays...but i don't believe that it is a 100% thing. I am just lazy hahaaha

Could foresee myself mugging the day before every exam. How am i prepared? I have not EVEN started with my THREE SCIENCES!! For a pure science student, every 1 of these subj can take quite some time, especially when it includes the sec3 topic...I a goner; at the sight of death will i regret...siao liao. Everyday is mostly MATHS MATHS MATHS for me...and staying at home isn't good, will always walk about my small little house...

I feel (sad?) i guess or maybe (disappointed) that our kitago friends like nvr send tegami to us or call(very difficult...) us or take the initiative to communicate with us...Nan.ze...Kitago trip 2008, lol, i really want to go back, no matter what.

Have lots to do after the stupid O lvl...life isnt fun with such things.

My father might just buy a SLR camera, O YEAH! But my sisters are so unsupportive..Dam. Come on get the Nikon D60 lol. Guess we all have to contribute some money...Sisters might not be willing X>x

Are you the god in your world? Have Faith in yourself? have Faith in life? I take freely from all religion, though i am a buddhist. Before you look to god, be a god in your world first@@ Your life is in your own hands, create what you want with your hands. You are the creator of the countless possibilities and achievement in life. THe absence of you is darkness, life would be miserable than.

I think i will get 1-3 tatoos in my entire life X.v lol. Probably influence by watching Miami ink. My first i think will be a picture of the demon that resides in me, sth tt i could not get rid of so i shall accept it. Got to draw it out one day when i could clear the fog that surrounds this creature of mine. Its there but its always blurry. Other tattos most likely be my love ones. In any case, Strictly no piercing for me lol.

I am going crazy! Stress lvl: 99.99..% Too much work and yet i am typing here, well need to relax. I did not do much at this point of time. O-kami-sama. i Spent my Whole afternoon till 6+ and finish only the AM txtbk question...stuck at first question nearly 2hrs...Too dumb....LUCky i manage to finish without giving up. Stubborn me.

Well, thinking of Kitago or any other things is really what i want to stop, cuz it sets off a whole chain of thoughts. When i go out i be looking at things and wondering "hmm..probably i could get tihs as a gift/ I could do this when they come to Singapore..." I just need to concentrate on whats on my hands now, but my mind has too many sides to it...

Had a haircut to try* to make my hair down...well it still stands if i want to make it.^^. Glad that nelson actually even thought of planning the kitago trip, i REALLY REALLY want to go back, its almost a MUST. John will most probably join us...

well going to enjoy a little while more before sinking into work again, so fag up by some EM questions...MR chan i need to ask you sth....haiz.

waa. ITs saturday le, 1.15am. So late...omg....I want to lock myself up in my room and finish up my work-.- BUt it is nvr possible after so many times lol. I am flooded with work and i mean it!!! HOW to do revision! And it seems this week have zoom past really fast for me.

There are many things in life that we couldn't change right now...no use saying "How i wish i did...in the past...." Its endless, no meaning to it. If humans could turn back time, they would have chose to do many things differently to correct mistakes etc etc...BUt it most likely end up more or less the same in the end...HUMANS are Selfish! Its human nature, the ugliness of it all just disgust me. In the past, I always prefer to work in an environment with animals than humans...well right now its more like i prefer working to help the Natural Environment. Humans are destroying themselves...they just do not want to face it in the lure of all the benefits they get to enjoy for that moment of time....

I feel like a crazy ass right now, blabbering like a drunkard. We should be realistic at times... I never like comparing with others and taking them as a yardstick for myself neither do i like to compete with others...You will just feel smaller and likely die from unhealthy competition. The greatest enemy is ourselves, use ourselves as the yardstick, bringing it further each time and feel better with each improvement. Life is not just about vast amount of wealth nor a super achievement(eg.getting your name down in history txt books)

I tired. BUt i got to keep moving on for my future, for my love ones.... I have seen yesterday and gone through today, why should i fear tomorrow?

TEGAMI.TEGAMI.TEGAMI.TEGAMI. Give me some encouragement....

MOnday have P.E support daniel and me, we are not big bucks out of it(truthful), besides we are trying to provide quality services by bringing it icy cold right down to your doorstep. We cannot diversify the economy without support from the public X>x i am evil........

LIKE anyone else, i can only trust those whom i think is trustable and often than not i need to be able to understand them, likewise, if i am a tough nut to crack please be patient and gentle with me. Anyways innocent-looking gals are always welcome with a thousand WATT smile...lol

If u love romance books please go check up on DONNA KAUFFMAN(not sure if i spell correctly) Sure to turn you on and hyper.

S.S.Biz("secret society" business) Lol, please show support. Tomorrow ur will know the details, everything conducted in a hush hush manner ^^ Lol i making it sound so suspicious. Got a damn funny name for our biz^^

Tomorrow is Physics test, Thursday is Chem test...SO tired, still yet to really get into my revision. I am drowning in deep liquefied Shi**.

whole body(leg) aching now...after running.

Two roads in life, towards life sciences or the environment. The road to JC is rather foggy to me, well the reason's simple enough, i am tired/sick. Whats more having 2 sisters in TJC, i don't really want to go JC lol, maybe the road towards JC might open up 1 day...really depends. +Scared i charm all the girls in JC how, all the guys get jealous, become their enemy lol, joke.

While jap frens started school, i just want to get out of school. When people get out into the society, many ppl will think of their Uni/JC/poly/sec sch life and wish to go back. lol, I most probably be like tt ba. My fren who is half-jap says Jap sch more fun but their sch system is not as good as S'pore. He said i hav not seen Japan man when i say Naho is 1 of the cutest girl i've seen...lol...cant disagree, only been there once!

Today had Nafa 2.4km...ran with the most effort throughout my life(normally slack, 12min++) for 2.4km, lol. 10mins18sec that's a accomplishment MAN. A success in life! Must celebrate every small improvements in life, moreover, success is just a feeling! Lets have it in every moment of our life!

JUst bought YUI "I LOVED YESTERDAY" album. IT ROCKSSSSSSSSS my life up!!!!!!!!!! WOOTS what more can i say, I LOVE YUI! The more i listen, the better i feel!!! Still got a 2nd dics for some videos, so BEAUTIFUL, i mean TEGE KAWAII. HEr voice is lovely, suge! CHEN BIn if you really love her, please Don't download and support her man-.- Still one to RIP the music from my dics, FAT hope! TAlking FATS here Okay.

And, during the group study, halim and frens came, freaking funny(at one point). His fren(i dun noe who) is dam comical. There was this group of girls who walked pass, just nice my head was facing their direction-.- and they started laughing...HIs fren reach into his bag and pull out his glasses! We laugh like mad as he whistle and look intently at them, OMG. + Almost ran up to get their no. -.-

Well there will be a business set up in Class 4E1, (Alvin+Daniel)'s corner, PLease show your support ^^ Just dun bring our product out of class. Bio lessons are becoming a torture! PLease love Mrs TAn la, she so good to us leh, i prefer to sit for Mrs Tan lesson than Fandrie Koh(Aint very gd in teaching + my Bio file is in a mess, cant blame any1 but myself, i too not organise le. But other Science teachers at least got help us lor)...

Stop telling/reminding the NO. of DAYS to SA1, crazy ppl, if you love such countdowns just write it in front of your desk.BAKA ne!

"Better an ugly face than an ugly mind"

well...well, it seems like this week ain't so good either...Keii like you said, you are busy and doing your best, I must do my best too. Highly motivated boy haha, thank you for your encouragement. Alvin Buckle UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Don't let laziness get the better of you any myself ROAR, FOR I AM LEGEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Seems like Sunday is coming, got to stop my obsession with the letter-box lol...
Seems like SA1 is coming, i have a stronger feeling in my gut i will cry in sadness as i take the exam. Will i be able to achieve much tmr?? Self-doubt...but as i sang that i believe i have what it takes to be the best...lets all believe in ourselves and the ppl around us. hmm...Chem Spa shld not be the way it is, Eugene broke his conical flask and i broke my measuring cylinder...quite sure Mrs Chang deducted marks...X.x. Chn isn't what i expected, though i learn a lot after each test cause the passages are all so meaningful. If i were to take every little small improvement as a success i would be a very happy person. Hav i been Degrading myself? throwing myself in sorrow and wallowing in mud? HAv i just let god decide how things shld happen? If i can say it out, i must hav let it out of me and moving on =)

Seems like Sunday i will thn buy Daniel a very Belated gift. Got much to thank him. Ask me y, lol. HIs a very gd fren, gd bro, not all can stand my crankiness, always making me feel better! lol

Seems like i am lagging behind, on the edge of the cliff.
Seems like Sunday there be group study at Kovan CC. Anyone also can come if not i will still be there lol.
Seems like no reply is good reply. No worries no worries boy

"Tonight i celebrate My Love" Peabo Bryson & Roberta Flack, was listening to it after sch in class. Go listen ba. really love it.

Gomenasai ne, haha, love this.............................................
Morning woke up to do some chores and some homework...before proceeding for BOWLINGu and board games later on.

A big happy birthday to Daniel! My first bowl and its a STRIKE!!!! i was like wondering why i did so badly in Japan, which was like so embarrassing. How i wish today's performace was how i did in Japan X.x MY best result 100 points!!! 100! 100!
Had so much fun bowling. And Daniel(like what you said) we must be brothers in past life, LOL..Thx man...HAd a great time

Next left with Chen to Doby gaut to meet up with the rest for board games at mind's cafe. Another fun time, learnt how to play many more games today, had so much fun man...all the laughter...(sorry ar gotta rush home X.x) Maybe i should sign up for membership, Nel if you are going to sign up for membership tell me, maybe i sign up with u ^^

Been thinking of the kind of food and places where i can introduce to Keii and family and chi's family, too crazy le lol. In the past nvr really hang out with friends and spend time building relationships, guess this is how the Kitago trip really change me.

To sum it all up for today, SUBARASHI!! Gambatte!! Gambare ne!! Oyasumi

Yippee tomorrow is a free day!! Going for bowling in the morning, followed by board games. Finally have a chance to go bowling; need to hone my skills lol.

Today's Am test is a big boo boo for me-.- 4 qns only did qn2,3. GG. John also sad la, not alone. Chen Bin said on Sunday he sure get full marks one, lol ended up nvr complete. Did not really give a damn at first, very relax telling myself ITs OVer just work harder...In the end go home sian sian nvr do anything but slackzzz Now i plan to start at 8pm ba.

haha, sign an agreement with my Bro, stating that he will sponser me with $150 for my Kitago trip if i score below 10 points(raw). Lol i also need to sign an agreement that i gave him $200 if he scores 15 pts and below for his 'O' (which is like 2 years later -.-) haha so long, but in a blink of an eye it will be the day he is receiving his results. Time just pass, nvr stops in its tracks for anyone.( why should time even stop for anyone?)

Seems like my week isn't that good leh,lol, with practical getting so many screw ups and my incapability of drawing graphs quickly...guess i shld buckle up and train the ARt of drawing graphs huh.
...Don't know what to say....shall just wait patiently and not get obsess(stop taking my mum keys after this sunday) I've been taking her keys for i think 3 weeks instead of my own .lol.

This is such a bad week for me! Physics S.P.A got mistake + today found out that i nvr put the right accuracy for my table...My Chinese mock test did badly and Today EM made the worst and most silly mistake!!! wanted full marks so badly-.-", Mr Chan's words are so EVIL, and now it is really true and i nvr get it. + so many...ps....

Anyways learn my lesson and move on! Life still goes on...rather use the same amt of energy to make myself smiley than to be miserable. I plan to quit physics tuition lo, waste time and money to me, not that helpful u see... Eng tuition still abt the same, only 2 girls whom i think are more soothing to my eyes(i am so bad!!) the rest is wthbbq.

Going to Chinese orals tomorrow to support them and learn more ba. And Sunday have group study at Kovan CC, please come if not it most probably will become a solo study for me.lol.

Since i can't change history, i shall change my future to what i want. BELIEVE IN YOURSELF...zutto...May there be luck with all of us.

While people in japan are enjoying the blooming sakura, i am tortured by the blazing heat here. Its freaking hot in singapore now! Difficult to keep my cool and concentration is affected.

Had physic S.P.A, I am so freaking affected cause of my STUPID CONCLUSION!!! STUPID!
shld simply write linearly related or sth like tt, i wrote collinear(which means nth!!!) After assembly reached home, changed and went for a run(holdingg weights) Tried to run further(compared to the previous time) Both hands were so tired compared to my legs that are like saying:"You joking!? I can move much faster and longer! Don't be lazy!" Had a good exercise anyways.

Spent some time later to read Chinese, then EM which gave me some problems due to the WRONG answers which were hand-written by Mr chan. Followed by Chem, simple but got some doubts to be cleared. AM doing some questions on Identities. My AM is in DEEP LIQUIDFIED SHIT...HELP man, Sa1 still got +sec 3 topics i like dun really rmb
and good thing is i starting to like Chem. I was like wearing a Puma cap in my hse and while i am studying, lol. Some of my family members were like, Wat U doing!? My sis(2nd) was threathening to take it back.(she got it from a job? lol)

Go listen to 'loneliness knows me by name' by Westlife...

Hope all my Kitago friends(those that have graduated) have a good time in their new SChool and make very good friends!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!