wellzz in the end i became the first to do the oral, guess its my first time doing oral first as my reg. is nvr no.1. So worried i would be late that i ask my sis to set another alarm just in case i did not wake up. Ended up dreaming of being late and woke up EARLY(6.45++am) To my surprise i wasn't shaking due to nervousness, but rather kena interrupted and keep repeating the first sentence of the passage due to class 4E2 who blasted the music and many other disruptions. Mrs foong got so angry and keep shouting****Roar****Seems like i could not think as logically on the spot nor read to my best....but still did quite well and manage to survive from her rapid fire.bang.bang it taught me so much more. Going to next Saturday's oral to listen to the other half of the class, and learn more.

Friday was quite a struggle to me, i slept at 10pm on thurs without doing my homework(basically slacking+too tired)actually planned to wake up at 4am to do my work...but lolz...go to sch and struggle to do my Am before Mr tan period. Was very lucky to have geo be4 recess=) which means i could do my AM haha, at recess rush to complete it. Seems like i am getting slower in EM work but i still wanna get 20 marks for test on Friday!!!!!!! O come on baby, the tougher the better.(adrenaline rush and get high doing the test lol, might just cry after it)

Got 47marks for first chinese mock and 49.5 for the second, i am improving must get more. Humans are greedy right? And the worst thing is i am also a human, just as selfish and greedy......EVIL me,kick kick kick...

Still thinking of going back to my presumed Haven, Kitago! Miss the place! Seems like i got to give myself a direction between the 2 paths ahead of me>science or enviroment>PLease do not waste resources!

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Have i pass the test of soilitude...Am i able to overcome the countless fears in me...Just in despair i guess...
Was doing reflection for VE lesson today and i believe that i written a little too much crap...for the question on my feelings.

Receive the infomation on our SA1 today.OH MY GOD(O-KAMI-SAMA!!!)VERy tiredzzzz, i wonder how many subjs. the kitas are studying man...Guess i got to prepare fast and furious if not i am sure to falter and IMH will be my next home. Lesson continued to 4pm++ help the teacher out a little than go home le.LOL. A1 you are mine!!!!!!!!!!!

The list of this year's kitago batch is up except the last member. Congrats to my junior, Jia Xuan. Sure get selected one lor, all those leadership position he have. Would be great if i could get to make new Kita friends haha.
well got to go study and burn midnight oil le.
O-ya-su-mi

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Holy death-.- such nobility-.- Its good Friday and i really like it, A REST day...shiok!

Just watch Taiyou no Uta last night, beautiful sweet story reminds me of 1リツトの涙 but i never cry this time rather smiling most of the time except the part where the sun is about to shine on her...i was so (excitedly)worried...sad sad but truly truly love YUI now just like Chen....Got a few number of yui man, eg.yui makino( i like her too) Horie yui and lastly Yoshioka Yui(YUI). All singers...lol makino and YUI very beautiful voices and their song is SUGE..

just came back from phy tution...completed my chn compo...still got much more to do...Tmr is Flag Day gonna collect a full tin...Come on la sir u are living so comfortably, a dollar more will really go a long way for the needy.Do you have the heart a not. Not guilty meh....LOL

P.E. in the morning, sprinting for the start...tired man how long have it been since i have ever sprint..only done it in lower secondary for badminton's P.T. COuld not achieve my timing of 1.23s, Keii is much more faster Lol..

Highlight of the day would be Chinese lesson for sure man, in the class till 4.10++--p.m for her lesson. Guess the best sentence would be "上巴士睡觉, 下巴士尿尿, 到了景点谁遍拍照, 回到家什么都不知到." She have also said so much to things to make me feel more motivated and pressured to do well. 30 days to "o" levels for Chinese...must do well...will definitely call ITo family and CHinami to tell em' my good results only if i did well!

Came home to realise that a number of my papers are wet -.-' lucky not very important except the book eugene gave got a little wet. Wasted some time to IRON it man LOl...

O-ya-su-mi...must not allow some things to affect me(eg. sean M.B)

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------S.P.A is so screwed to me...ITs a simple experiment but...i made a EXTREMELY BAKA BAKA mistake. Time in seconds i actually put in minutes and rounded of!!! Took me some time to realise... Then keep changing but more than half of the readings is screwed up, i just draw line of best fit then redo 1/2 readings...DAmn screwed because of such stupid mistake! Then cheated a little, change a little...Worst past is I got the time for the End of the paper wrongly@@@@@ I was like a freaking 10mins wrong...When the teacher announce " 1 minute left" it was like GG/OMG/RIP....to me man. My grapg was not even drawn as i have erased it to redraw...LUCKY LUCKY me just chiong through the drawing accurately and change the point that is extremely off X>x
LOL, the dark secrets of experiments...Unethical mini-scientist.
*Dirty secrets...EXPOSE hooo...

Well, lots of crashes lately. Should be doing KITAGO presentation today but the timing crash, so did i...Well really wanted to do it but its over lol...I wonder if the kitago counterparts need to do such things(????)

Life is at the end all about relationships...and i cherish what i have now and really hope i could build up a better relationship with my bro, cANt stand him, my attitude sucks towards him cause he nvr listens...Well heard from nelson about phoon saying he is very dissapointed with keith, only receives but nvr giv...In terms of reaping all sorts of fun/joy/excitement and good relationships he got alot more more than chen and me ba...Well its down to a person's character. I not outspoken nor so friendly nor the yan dao to smithen everyone of em' LOL...But i am so happy that i have nvr regreted joining this programme. Blessings.Wish come true as i've always wanted to join the programme long long ago, long long ago. The sms by miss simon saying congratz made me feel better than striking 4-D...LOL.

Right now everytime i log in to my msn, the only thing i hope is to have email from kitago ppl...seldom...WHy must we be the ones who send em' first be4 they reply and nvr the other way round? Its like they nvr give a damn...

Went to Ju eng home today for Cip and soon it be flag day. Today's job was to put mee sua in a black bag, Lol...this is my 4th/5th time going there le... The place is dependent on donations only(non-profit organisation) The mee sua is damn dirty,lol, all those insects... Never knew the food there is so dirty, to think that i even ate lunch at there for 3 times-.- Their food is all donated by these food companies, mostly food that are near expiration date...To me these food are all so unhealthy...WEll got to study and prepare for SPA BIO, OMG...but not so worried X>x

I will be trying to change myself and hope your will help me, lol...as in more refine perhaps,lol. NO.1 is : NO Vulgarity. If i were to spew a single vulgarity please warn me...lol.

slept about 1am last night...so tired. Woke up in the morning and push myself to do a little bio...Die liaozz so much more to go and still got geography test tomorrow. I have yet to really start my geo revision...Got to burn midnight oil le--still went to watch movie! And got to go visit my grandpa.

Movie is Leapt years, thought it be some superb love story, though its quite nice i can only rate it 3/5 stars. Maybe my hurting back and bum is causing me to enjoy the movie lesser. felt like lots of time have gone by when i was watching the movie, lol cause the time pass like water in the movie(4 years by 4 years)

A little worried about our plans to travel back to Kitago though. BUt I AM EXtremely adamant and determined to return, if not the next time would be like 3-5 years later due to NS + studies. If all 10 of you cant return i am quite sure my heart will shatter...Preferably at least 3 ppl. Going back is to enjoy + build stronger ties ma, just like those diplomats who fly about to build ties with other countries. Whats wrong with staying with our beloved second family!!! Lucky keith think the same way as me on this.(staying at the host place) I think this will help your realise sth: There is no other CHOICE unless you are just too bloody rich.
well got to go study geography le. Oyasumi.

Hey Eugene on a "life goes on" attitude ne. Haha, i was like this for many years lol. No wonder tell me to relax, passing on the message from your friend. LOL

hehe, seems like my letter have reached you, thanks for informing me or i might go BerSerk mode(RO). Hope you like what i drew and don't bother too much about what i wrote X.x Keith have called Chinami! Got so much more to ask you and its good that you are going to call again^^ I almost manage to call chinami too but could not find my calling card...guess my mum lost it after taking it away from me...Anyways this means more time for me to prepare what i want to say^^ ITo family, still need some time before i could call your(nervous i guess, maybe need a lot more time to prepare, don't want to sound stupid hope you can understand) + Keith please don't be too rude to Mr ITO!!!

I've been super spirited these few days. Only 25% of me is living the moment and other parts of me are living in my future moments. Ridiculous right, many many fragments of my life and they are all so uncertain. Like having a wife(Japanese)...like travelling in Kitago...having kids....Since young it started from small thoughts or dreams, at some point in life, at a particular moment i REally REally thought i have seen it happening inside before man...But it lasted a while. Right now is just me and my fantasies, too sick le love to conjure up all sorts of things. In the end my time just flew like a bullet.Bang and 1 day is up. Bang and school starts...I want more time! more rest! You people will be shocked if you know the pace i am moving.

Already planning what to write to you, next letter! haha. But it be after my chinese O lvl then i send X.x Speaking of which, i NEED an A1 if not i will be re-taking...(waste money and brain cells) i am EXTREMELY EXTREMELY WORRIED...

Love staying at home^^ Been safe under shelter for 2 days, so good man. I am so enjoying the weather LA NINA effect, till now it still sounds alien to me, to think that i am a geography student!

Actually wanted to write about "love and hate" for my topic but due to unforeseen circumstances I have to change the topic...Did not touch my mobile phone for like one whole night till 6.15++ p.m. today...This Bonzo here have totally forgotten about the Kitago meeting X.x..THought i had nothing on for today only my CCA till i met Elijah around Liu lian......My mood totally changed(internally), felt so bad all the way....Wow=.= SO RESPONSIBLE......

Had a stressful time the night before, cause by my EM TYS(OH MY GEEEZZ..EM!!) I understand the question but do not know the way to answer, asked my sister, who keep explaining till she super angry--made me angry too...After this its like so late and i am very tired. Ponder by the bed a little and thought that i had no activities tomorrow and went to bed le....

Is going a step further going to kill you...i might be asking too much or you might be feeling that i am blaming others, but its my fault for not noting it down so i am not blaming anyone. Its ridiculous to ask of others to remind me but cant you help your friend by moving a tiny weeny step more!!! Just being ridiculous right! Thx anyways for your sms.

Seems like my complex hay-brain is burning up! Forgetfulness of mine is so inexcusable and procrastinate too much le...MY HOLIDAY!!!

IN the near-future, i will see broken-dreams, broken-hearts, empty wallets, remorse and many others...can you see my sinister smile...

What should i say when i call over...need to write up some questions i guess...

Scripts that are beautifully written and give you a broader perspective of the sufferings out there and there are people who really want to do something about it.
Take a look at this...

Name: Thara Rubini Gopalan
School: CHIJ Toa Payoh Secondary School
Topic: The Vicious Cycle of Poverty
Ranking: 1st

Children walk along dirt paths barefoot, immune to small stones and glass shards that pierce their feet. They are clothed in rags that are tattered and torn, having been passed down through their numerous older siblings. Their skinny bodies are in great contrast to their bulging bellies. Some women congregate around a communal well that has nearly run-dry from years of drought, while others scrabble at the ground with their bare hands to find roots. These are people living below the poverty line.

Good morning ladies and gentlemen. Today, I will share my views on poverty, an issue remote for most of us living in affluent Singapore. The World Bank defines extreme poverty as living on less than US$1 per person per day. A United Nations Development Programme, or UNDP, estimate suggests that in 2002 some 20 million people were living in extreme poverty in the war-torn nation of Sudan.

Sadly, the effects of poverty are wide-ranging. When the effects of poverty become the causes, we see the onset of the ‘poverty cycle’. Those living in poverty have limited access to essential health services and suffer from hunger, or even starvation. They experience mental and physical problems rendering it more difficult for these people to cope with their current situation. There are many ways to reduce poverty in the world. Free trade, development aid, family planning and subsidised healthcare are only a handful of the methods that international organisations such as the World Bank and the United Nations are employing to meet the first Millennium Development Goal of eradicating extreme poverty and hunger by 2015.

However, I believe that the provision of basic education and microfinance is the key to breaking the vicious cycle of poverty. With education, people can find better employment, hence draw higher salaries. Progressively, people can learn how to use technology effectively thereby increasing their work efficiency. Without this provision, people are trapped in an unjust system from poverty. For example, the devadasis of India are coerced into prostitution and cannot leave their jobs as courtesans as they are unable to gain other forms of employment since most do not have any form of education.

If those living in poverty could be provided with a small loan through microfinance, they would have some capital to start businesses and in hence, break out of the cycle of poverty. Mr Muhammad Yunus, a Nobel Peace Prize laureate, founded the Grameen Bank, a microfinance organization and community development bank in Bangladesh. The bank makes small loans known as microcredits to the impoverished without requiring collateral.

There are many things that I, as a youth, can do to alleviate poverty. Since most Singaporean youth are unaware of the nature of poverty, I can start with spearheading programmes aimed at educating my fellow youth about the global nature of poverty. Secondly, I can start initiatives in a particular community to alleviate poverty. For example, I could start an educational institution that provides the devadasis of India with basic education. Through this initiative, the devadasis will not have to risk contracting HIV/AIDS whilst working. Instead, they will be able to find better paying employment. Many of you may wonder how I will be able to find enough capital to start such an initiative. Well, the Asian Development Bank and the UNDP are eager to contribute monetary aid to initiatives that may help to alleviate poverty!

Since I am relatively inexperienced in setting up initiatives, I could work with a renowned individual and learn how to set up an initiative. I find the initiative started by the 2006 Rolex Award laureate Alexandra Lavrillier very exciting and efficacious at reducing poverty. She started her own initiative to provide the Evenk children of Siberia with a modern education. By working with people of her stature and learning from them, I will be able to start my own initiative in the future.

Norman B. Rice said, “Dare to reach out your hand into the darkness, to pull another hand into the light”. As a youth living in affluent Singapore, I feel it is extremely important to help the impoverished. I need to reach out to the less fortunate and bring light into their lives! I can help to break the vicious cycle of poverty!

Nice right? GOt first in possition of all the other scripts leh...when will i be able to write sth like that(too lazy i guess_)
Go to this website for other winning scripts.
http://pulsate08.livejournal.com/11584.html

Alas i have sent the letter to you, started since February-.- About a month of trying my best to make it look as god-like as possible...Now it became DisFigured and in addition a MISTAKE IN 1 Word!!! The word everybody(min.na) to (mi.na) MY N is missing!!###@@@ Learnt my lesson: not to write anything, ANYTHING on the letter first and use my blue pencil to draw first. Thats the purpose for buying such a expensive pencil so i should use it well. Speaking of it, my art piece is still in kitago(sch), the drawing on the fruits. I believed i have drawn it real well since i rarely do such a thing, people around me were like saying SUGE, waa make me feel so good...BUt they nvr return, only the Shouji we did -.-

Had a tough fight against my fatigue today, selpt at 3.30am(to do the letter) and woke up at 8.30 am to read some papers and Finish the letter. Guss i might hav been complacent and nvr check for such a huge mistake. But it is still considered small compared to how i disfigure it X.x From a beautiful pice of paper to ** could not change it as i have painstakingly drawn the picture and difficult to transfer it. Sorry if you are wondering why there is a (stick-on) piece of paper. And lots of problem with my pens(my clumsiness)..Anyways i feel relieve for sending it but still the missing word bugs me X.x Baa...baaa

Keith got lots to ask you, and curious on many other things.lol..Been reading other ppl blogs lately and cant help but feel my life not as hyper lol. When i saw johnathan's blog i awas like waa, studying TCM(if i am not wrong) in the US and studies super good, experience is good too. Though living alone can be a little sianzz at times but with so many great friends, got wat to worry man. I also want to study overseas(Australia,near ma) after my 'O' lvls -c- but NEED LOTS OF MONEY

If friendship is fragile to you and our bonds are so weak, why bother making friends? Put your trust in them, they are called friends and not strangers, put away unnecessary formality or i will go apeshit! Apologies loses its meaning if it is overuse...

I guess the sentence i want to hear from you most is "shin.ji.te.ru." if you ever(or even) read this. (not open for guys to tell me)

Went to science centre for a polymerase chain reaction(PCR) Intresting course, learnt more about bio-infomatics,biotech(i guess), biochemistry. Now i know i want to avoid these courses^^ because my future would most probably be seeing codes, more codes and even more codes + i will tell people its another day of scoping(microscope-.-) We learnt about using prime to generate large copies of a part of the DNA for 30 cycles. There is actually a huge chunk of our DNA that is not in use! We did a test on a portion classified as PV92(useless part so they say) to see if we have a component called "Alu" So seems quite similar to my Jap name lol, and yes it is present in me. This means i am a HOMOzygous present, Greg is the same as me too and quite a few more lol. We did a gel electrophoresis, i think its my second time doing or at least seeing haha, very familliar to it. Thats about it.

Thats for what i learnt, in the morning Macdonals(lucky i had brought money), afternoon macdonals, after the program macdonals AGAIN! Seems like i am doing the program "supersize me" lol. They were planing to go for soccer and even Benndict also went, so i followed. Managed to change the timing for an earlier time than dun need to go home first. No fancy moves or role for me but Benedict you did quite well^^

On the way home, was helping benedict to find his bearings, in the end i was at the bus stop without my Uniform X>x. I literally ran back all the way. On the way back saw 62 and sprinted all the way to the bus stop, sianzz tough training lol. Reached home without dinner and started cooking my own. Lets see, glutinous rice(leftover from breakfast) fried it in the pot but still cold, sausages which i never cooked well not really that cooked(though its pre-cooked) and alas something successful my prata. Still i got my stomachaches...Slept and woke up at 12am(WTHBBq) did not planned for it and now cant return to sleep!

There is four kind of ppl with such mentality in this world: Win-lose, lose-win, lose-lose and the best win-win.

We practically grow up in a win-lose situation. read this story, 2 man were chased by a bear, 1 guy turned around and said " i just realised that i only need to outrun you=P), when i read this i was laughing man. life like that.

Lazy to type go figure out the rest yourself.Oyasumi

P.s You make me feel like a stranger at times, for both of our doors are closed.

Always want to blog but too tired and busy(EXcuses) to do it. Well seems like its a burned off 1-week Holiday for me. Cleared some of the tests without that much joy to it. Lets see, this is a result-oriented world so let me tell you my marks(dun be jealous cuz i did not do so well) chem:16/20(shiok starting to love the subj through the superb KAKOII Mrs Chang) phy: 21/25 (sad, stupid mistakes, whole class many scored higher) chn: 34/50(disappointing*disgusted)(I WANT MY A1) SS: did badly(yet to know) Am: did it today, stun at first question when i know how to do it!! Stanley Tan did not come and a Old fogger came to give us the test. He was slow(cant blame, no faults, but did not give extra 1-2 mins) Got stuck at qn.2 i think i can do it but got time restraint so nvr finish***)

After today's school, i am once again PILED with work, seamless amount of work to do( so y am i still wasting my typing on the computer? Ask me y. To relax LA!) Mostly chinese though X.x I want my A1 and i know, like what Mrs foong keep saying to me " Ni na bu liao A1 yi ding hui hen shi wang de". So Wo hui quan li yi fu! sry lazy to type the chinese out X.x Learnt more about Mrs Olsen and a little more about Mrs Chang today^^ Planned to go home and finished up my letter today but knowing that nelson and wei sheng and more ppl are coming, i also wanted to go le.( How can i commit such a "yes" mistake) But i gain something at least, more muscles(lol) cause i went to gym with Greg and Eugene. Later proceeded to his abode cause he wants to bathe. Then met up with chen and bryan. Thought nelson would be inside-.- anyways its full and we went to cuppage plaza to try our luck. I was like Omg when i reach there, they have closed down(expected lol) The place i played lan with my dear friends..haiz. But we walk back the time, just in luck ppl were getting out le^^ But the table position sucks. Moments later, Nelson and Wei sheng join us and open a new table. Wei sheng is so pro man "king" lol, but Chen beat him in the end +lots of trumpeting like him win some award. Thats him, my "GREAT Friend" He lucky we understand him well, if not his teeth all would have been gone by now, joke can even imagine him saying my hands will break.

After we left, geared up to go for tution but saw Lionel with his company, so they were like going to say Hi and i followed suit. Wa kao, Chen walk through them saying "excuse me excuse me" OMG they were all looking at him *STUNNED* Lucky we all went in together and say hi to Lionel but they were still a little shock.lol. On the way back, Aaron and my eyeballs were rolling like some jackpot machine with Chen bin trumpeting. By the time i was at tution i am dead beat! And there were so many new comers, the class should not be so big! All were girls Lol, look a little better than others but still---LOL, tried to spoil my image by saying drugs and porn in class, Joke, their reactions were like dotz.

P.s Don't portray me as a petty little man please, unless you feel that i am one, Tell me.